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I am sitting in front of the computer and finishing my article at the editorial office at one of my first jobs in Warsaw. Colleagues are walking behind my back. Suddenly I feel hands on my neck. – Relax. You look stressed – says a colleague and starts to massage and stroke my back around the neck. As if nothing had happened, and I don’t jump up and push the guy away with anger – even though it is what he deserves. I sit paralyzed for a long moment. I remain choked and chilled. Only after a while do I turn around and ask him to stop. I don’t remember exactly, but I might have even done it with a smile – after all, here at the editorial office everyone is fun and nice. We all like each other. He didn’t insist, he wasn’t pushy, but he didn’t apologize either. He had no such reflection. He just walked away without a word, a little grumpy that I dismissed him, and I went back to the article as if it was an incident without meaning to me. But it wasn’t.
Before I could concentrate on writing again, I had to overcome the restlessness and discomfort I suddenly felt in an environment that I previously considered perfectly safe. I was confused. I was seething with anger that somebody I thought was a nice buddy dared to do something like that, and at the same time I felt humiliated that I let it happen – even if only for a brief moment.
When I think about it today, I think I made a mistake. I should have raised the topic loudly and expressed my objection to such behavior at the office.
“Girls decide to remain silent or turn uncomfortable situations into a joke”
More than 20 years have passed, and I am constantly shivering as I remember the unwanted hands on my neck. Someone might say girl, don’t make a scene, you’re exaggerating, nothing happened. However, I am invoking this incident from years ago with full premeditation, because in most cases this is the case. Drastic situations of sexual harrasment, when publicized, are universally condemned. Minor, everyday incidents of overstepping borders, which affect almost all of us on many levels – in the family and in public space, are usually treated lightly or with a pinch of salt. For girls who do not agree to them, the environment – yes, yes, not only men, but also female colleagues from work, familiar and unfamiliar women – suggests various ailments – from lack of a sense of humor, through oversensitivity, to hysteria.
So we usually don’t even talk about them. We do not want to be pointed with the fingers, we are afraid of stigmatization and ridicule. Madwoman, feminist (!), mythomaniac – the media scene will brand you so. And since it is a rather closed environment, everyone knows everyone and everything, in “less glaring” cases, such as the one I have experienced, the girls decide to remain silent or turn uncomfortable situations into a joke. Has it ever happened to you?
Direct suggestions or questions that violate intimacy
It happened to me more than once. When I entered my adult life, I didn’t know yet that some of them could be easily classified as classic sexual harassment cases. This term was not yet widely known in Poland, and in my home such situations were referred to as “inappropriate” or “boorish”. But since there were no witnesses and one-offs, the perpetrators most often got away with impunity and the incidents most probably disappeared from their minds.
However, they stayed with me to this day. I remember suggestions made more or less directly, sloppy jokes, allusions, insinuations or questions that violate my intimacy. Their authors were my close and more distant colleagues from media, they happened tête-á-tête, at meetings, during integration events. I turned them into a joke, pretended not to hear, and avoided certain people and situations. Sometimes I made it clear that I did not want this behavior. But only in private, because getting attention in public usually ended in dismissive: “I was kidding, you imagined too much.” “Why so touchy? I didn’t mean anything like that.” This was and still a common tactic of “colleagues”.
“Protest clearly and loudly when someone violates your physical or mental comfort zone”
I feel sorry for myself that I learned to respond to sexual harassment so late. Today I understand that if we want to end the social consent to cross our borders, we must guard them more and react decisively. Protest clearly and loudly when someone violates our physical or mental comfort zone and not be afraid that it will only “worsen” the situation. It is very important also when we are accidental witnesses of such a practice. And let’s not have any doubts – change will not happen by itself. The patterns of toxic masculinity instilled in successive generations will not be easily eradicated.
Today, in the second decade of the 21st century, although even teenagers are familiar with such words as sexism, patriarchy, sexual harassment and understand what they mean, the scale of the problem is still shocking – according to a study published in September this year in Poland, sexual harassment affects 84 percent of all women.